I just need to vent...

Hello all of my blog readers,

I just need to vent about a few things. This does not apply to all of you, so for that, I apologize for those that have been supportive. With that being said...

I'm tired of people trying to make me feel guilty about OUR decision to move to IL. I'm tired of people acting like I don't miss my family at home. I'm tired of people saying hurtful things because my life hasn't turned out the way THEY wanted it to. Well, you know what? I am EXTREMELY proud of the way my life has turned out. Hence, I said "MY" life. I'm sorry if I'm not that naive, ten-year-old girl that you can mold into anything you want anymore. So, when you say that you think I've "screwed up my life", why don't you take a look at YOUR life and tell me if you still have room to judge me.

I know it's difficult for some of you to comprehend that I'm engaged (and marrying) a man that's a few years older and that has three kids. Get over it. We're happy. I know some of you only say the things you do because you're not happy in your own lives and have to try and tear other people down that are living the life they want to. This is my life now. Unfortunately, some people just like to judge because they have nothing else better to do.

So, for the people that have been just as loving and supportive all along, THANK YOU. Mom, Dad, Kelly, John...thank you. You are not included in my rant. We really appreciate everything you've done to help us. There are just a few select people that are making it really difficult to miss because of the things they say and how they act. Regardless of that, I still love and miss all of you. I miss everyone from family to my old store on Vogel. Did you seriously think I was going to stay in Arnold, Missouri living with my parents all my life and never finding love? If so, you're sadly mistaken.

I'm happy. Can't you see that? Isn't that what you all say you want for me? If that is the truth, then you should be thrilled because I'm very happy.

Okay, I'll get off my soapbox. I sure hope I've made my point.

Love,
Cole

My digital camera incident :(

Hey everyone! I know my blog has been slow as of late, but that's mostly due to the fact that I no longer have my digital camera. For those who don't know...here's the story:

A few weeks ago (right before we came to MO) I had my laptop and digital camera sitting out because I had my camera hooked up to my laptop uploading pictures to either Myspace or this site. I got up to go upstairs for something and I closed my laptop and placed it in the computer chair, with my camera (in its case) sitting on top. I came downstairs a few minutes later and started getting the kids ready for bed. I had them get in their pajama's and I asked Shawn to take his dirty clothes upstairs and put them in the laundry basket. Here's a fact for you...the kids love my camera. They love taking pictures with it. Well, one night, it was just Jason, grandma, Torrey, and myself sitting around and I said, "Hey...I still can't find my camera. Has anyone seen it?" Jason gets up and starts looking for it...under the couch, on top of shelves...just about everywhere. I decided that I was done looking for it for now and I went downstairs to switch our laundry from the washer into the dryer. I got to the bottom and grabbed the last item of clothing when I heard something...I looked in the washer, and there it was. My beautiful camera. Dead. No longer in working condition. I was so upset. Not only do I love my camera (a lot), I hadn't had it for very long. My dad had given me several gift cards for Best Buy that he earned with his job and that paid for about half of it. Jason and I paid for the rest of it. That's why my blog has been so slow. I haven't had any new pictures and I prefer to have pictures to brighten up my posts.

So basically, I don't know if I grabbed the camera when I went upstairs, wasn't paying attention and (for some odd reason) sat it on top of the laundry basket. Or if Shawn grabbed it without me even knowing and took it upstairs with him when he took his clothes up and put it in the basket, of course, not knowing any better. Either way, it's really unfortunate. I still have my old digital camera, so my mom is going to send that up with John and Kelly when they come up in a week or so. My old camera was kind of annoying towards the end because the little door that opens to put the batteries inside was broke and I had to keep it shut with tape. So, besides the fact of going through a bunch of batteries, each time I'd change the batteries, I'd have to put more tape on it because it wasn't strong enough to hold.

I'm really excited about the next week or two. I just received my schedule and I'm pretty pleased with it. I'm off today and then I work Wednesday-Friday and I'm off Saturday and Sunday. And I even get off early on Friday...so I'll have a nice, long weekend with Jason and the kids. Then I'll work Monday-Wednesday of the next week and I'm off on Thursday...which is when John, Kelly, Ant and Hannah are coming up. I'll work Friday and then I'm off on Saturday. I was just informed about a fish fry on Saturday, so I guess we're going to that. Then I have to work on Sunday. That's all of my schedule that I know so far. I can't wait for all of them to come up because I miss them!

Well, there really isn't much of anything else to talk about right now, so I'll end my blog with this...I love all of you and I miss you. Take care!

Love,
Cole

"We Weren't Crazy"

Since my blog has been really slow lately because of my camera incident (long story...I may post later), I decided to just post some lyrics of this song that Jason and I have been listening to a lot lately. It reminds us of...well, us. lol

"We Weren't Crazy" by Josh Gracin:

We headed out to California
Everybody tried to warn us
Said we wouldn’t make it any Further
Than that worn out Chevy would

We broke down a time or two
Thought “maybe we didn’t think it through”
We were all we had to turn to
When it wasn’t lookin’ good

We’re lookin’ back laughin’
‘Cause they called us crazy

(chorus)
We were young, we were wild, we Were restless
Had to go, had to fly - had to get away
Took a chance on that feelin’ - baby
We were lovin’ blind - borderline reckless
We were livin’ for the minute we Were spinnin’ in
Maybe we were a lot of things
But we weren't crazy

Just a couple kids a couple years ago
Now we gotta couple kids of our own
We turn out right - proved them wrong
Look at us goin’ strong

Lookin’ back laughin’
‘Cause they called us crazy

(repeat chorus)

Coulda set it down
When things got tough
Coulda walked away from this love
But that’d been crazy

We were young, We were wild, We Were restless
Had to go, had to fly, had to get Away

Took a chance on that feeling
We were lovin blind, borderline reckless
We were livin for the minute we were spinning in
Maybe we were a lot of things
Oh maybe we were a lot of things
But we weren't crazy

We Weren't Crazy
We Weren't Crazy

We Weren't Crazy Lyrics